I've decided I seriously hate life. I'm not kidding, I hate it. It sucks. I believe today I've had one of the most annoying stressful days in my college career. Where do I begin?
So I get up and go to class this morning. I come back, shower and start trying to fix the iTunes application on my computer. It decided to freeze up and wig the hell out last night. So I delete it and reinstall. Doesn't work. It just continually freezes everytime it opens. It keeps getting stuck on this message that says "determining gapless playback information". I've got no idea what that means and I can't fix it. Anyone have any ideas? I've uninstalled and reinstalled everything about 5 times and rebooted my computer about 10 times. Still nothing. Never mind that I'm pretty sure my computer either has a virus or some serious spyware on it. Computer freezes when I try and run scans too. I spent a half hour on the phone with India this afternoon trying to get it sorted out. They tell me to uninstall the software and try restarting. Seriously? Like I haven't been doing that for about 7 hours now. In case you were wondering, doing that once more did not work. Basically, I'm about ready to throw this thing against a wall. Cheap piece of shit.
On top of the computer, I find out that I didn't get the job in the Finance Office. The lady emailed me and said they found someone with more filing experience. I didn't know filing required so much practice. So that put me in a worse mood because it drives home my terrible financial situation right now. My dad told me to go get a job at Starbucks or in the food court at Union Station. I think he's on crack.
I've got a paper due tomorrow and I need to write it early so I can go to Leahy and print it because, oh wait, that's right my printer broke. Just decided to stop working last week. So I can't write my paper too late because I need to go over to Leahy and print it. I also have an entire book to read by Wednesday but I haven't gotten a chance to start it so I'm going to be up all night doing that, after I write this paper for media.
On top of all that, this semester is really shaping up to suck. Liz and Matt aren't around, Molly is barely around and hardly ever talks, Chris is preoccupied with his own stuff and no one seems to want to do anything. I haven't taken one picture (other than the inauguration) since we got back to school. Erin said it the other night: that's sad because if I haven't taken any pictures it means we haven't done anything. I'm actually beginning the countdown until the end of the year because this semester doesn't seem like its going to be enjoyable at all. In case you were wondering, there are 98 days left. Junior year, in general, is going to end up sucking.
I think that a lot of what went on last semester is finally starting to get to me. I tried to take it all in stride, as best I could, and keep life as normal as possible. It worked at the time, but it also ment that I just ignored most of the emotional drain it should have taken on me. So I think a lot of that started to hit me today too. At this rate I may end up like Liz, curled up in a fetal position for 2 days on the couch in Trailer 15. I'm having a hard time dealing with it all. I'm just not having a good time anymore. And that's depressing because there has never really been a time in college when I haven't been having a good time. Not for any extended period at least.
So when Molly finally got back to the trailer today I was in a bad mood and in the process of yelling a some non-English speaking person in India. Twenty minutes later she comes by my room in her Saints jersey and tells me her and Marian got tickets to go see Cowboy Mouth in Baltimore. Gee, thanks for the invite. I'd love to go. That was just the icing on the cake. After everything else, I'm getting blown off by Molly, who hardly ever even does anything to begin with.
I dont know. I guess things will have to get better eventually but until then, I just want to go lay in bed and do nothing. Of course, that's not an option so I'll have to settle for writing a media paper and reading a history book.
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